Sunday, June 12, 2016

Party for FIVE!


This morning we celebrated Banner's 5th birthday party at one of the fun splash parks in town. I think it went really well! I'm pleased to say that the weather held out so we could actually have the party where we wanted and not have to reschedule like we did when we attempted a splash park party on Banner's 2nd birthday. It was very windy, but I'm glad it wasn't a gazillion degrees outside... it very much reminded me of the weather for Banner's 1st birthday party.

In years past, I pretty much picked the theme based on things Banner was into. This year, I let him choose. I was thinking he'd want a Mario party or Batman. But, he chose Star Wars and pretty much stuck with it for the last several months. This was an easy theme as it's so popular right now! With all the other stress in our lives right now (just had Knox's naming, planned and had Mischelle's sprinkle, and planning on another shower for another friend right now all while trying to put our house on the market and deal with roof damage from a hail storm in March), I wanted this party to be super fun and super easy! I also wanted it to be super inexpensive - and it really turned out to be all of the above! Mostly, I'm glad Banner had a great time with his friends and family!











Colby & Quinn
Bree & Evan





They both turned 5 this week!

With Teddy






3.5 months

With Evan and Ivy



Happy 5th Birthday, Banner Boone!

Thursday, June 9, 2016

FIVE WHOLE YEARS!

Dear Banner,
Each night I tuck you in bed, you change just a little bit more. Seemingly overnight, your hands have gotten more sturdy and less soft and chubby. They are no longer the hands of a toddler. Your body is getting longer and leaner, no longer the roundness of a small boy. Your clothes and shoes barely make it a couple months before they are tattered and torn up - showing the work of a growing boy who is hard at play all the time. You've made some great friends this year - again. And, you've stood up to the tall challenges of starting a new school in your final year of preschool, of being part of a soccer team, of strengthening your swimming skills, of taking on reading books, of becoming a big brother all over again! This year we've seen such phenomenal growth and learning, and I'm always so proud of you.

Here's a little more random stuff about you at FIVE years old now:

-You've become extremely animated. Not just when signing or acting out a YouTube song, but when you are telling us a story or giving a response to a question. You shrug your shoulders or wrinkle your nose or throw your hands up while elaborately telling a story. It's awesome. I absolutely love this and find it so entertaining. You will even sometimes nonchalantly say things so maturely... even things like "Broccoli? No thank you, I'm not a fan of broccoli." Or, you'll stand up from dinner and tell us very emphatically, while pointing to the respective person: "It's Mommy's responsibility to count. It's Daddy's responsibility to come to the bathroom when I yell for him."

-Speaking of how you speak, your vocabulary and precise language is something to note. You are particular about the words you choose and even the words that others use. You love to know what certain words mean and like to pay close attention to grammar. When a new word is introduced to you, you immediately pick it up and use it as if it's been a word you owned for years.

-You are quite musical and vocally gifted if you ask me. You love to sing, and you sing on pitch and with great tune. Daddy even asked me the other day if we should get you singing lessons. I think it's a bit early, but it's something to consider for the future!

-Things that make you ecstatic: Legos, our neighbors Don & Jeanne, donuts, iPad games and when I agree to let you buy more of them, Addy, going to Grandma's house, kissing Knox, screen time, and dessert or getting candy

-As much as you love Quinn, you can't stand him. I get so frustrated with the sibling rivalry that's escalated since Knox was born. You love Knox and would do anything to protect him and keep him safe and happy. But, when it comes to Quinn, at least when at home, you would do anything to piss him off or hurt his feelings. This is luckily not true at school - and we hear you are the best brothers at school. You take great care of him, want to play with him, are sensitive to his feelings if he wants to play with you but you want to play with your friends on the playground ("I'm going to play with Jack today; you go play with your friends and we will play later.") But, you constantly say things at home that are meant to upset him: "I'd cheer for anyone in our family, except for Quinn," "If Mommy could go on a trip somewhere, she'd go to Hawaii with Daddy, me, and Knox. We would leave Quinn at home with Grandma," (on a Mother's Day response at school), "I don't want Quinn to come to my birthday party. I don't like him." Yet, I know this is not true. You two have so much fun together, and I tell you time and time again how much he idolizes you - copying you and wanting to do just what you do. I know this is exactly what upsets you - you often feel like you don't have your own space and have to entertain a tag-along kiddo. But, he brings you so much joy and you often overlook how happy he makes you when you make these comments that are probably more aimed at getting a rise out of me and Daddy than at upsetting Quinn.

-A few months ago, you started showing interest in reading. Whenever you thought you knew a word, you would point to it and say, "Mommy, does that say ___?" And, most often, you'd be right. You were pairing words to places nicely. For instance, you'd notice the restroom would say "Women" or "Men" or you'd read traffic signs. "Does that say 'Do Not Block?'" And you'd be right! So, I started some sight words and we'd review them nightly. Then, one day Grandma brought out some old Dick & Jane books, and we took one home that night. Right away, you were able to put words together. The text got harder, but you stayed with it! Then, we would go to the library and pick out books that you could read all on your own. Most importantly, you are comprehending what you read. I ask questions after you finish a book or during the story, and you always know exactly what you've been reading! Reading with you is my absolute favorite thing to do with you!

-Your teachers had only positive things to say about you at your spring conference. The only area on your conference sheet that indicates a need for improvement is "accepting disappointment." Well, while I'd agree with this, we all need help with that area! You are quick to defend yourself or argue with a consequence. You might swat at your brother, for instance, and when I reprimand you, you will start saying, "But he...." or "Well, Quinn wasn't...." and try to get out of trouble and not take responsibility that perhaps you shouldn't have reacted that way. But, every other area was proficient, and they feel strongly that you will do just fine in Kindergarten.

-KINDERGARTEN!! Oh my! Cannot believe it's time for that already. I won't go there yet.

-STATS: You are currently wearing 4T and 5T clothes. Your shoe size changes all the time! You are wearing size 11 right now, but 12 isn't far away!

We had your well check with Dr. B the day after your birthday (I'm inserting this information here after this was originally posted so all information is in one place). You did great with him.
  • Weight: 40 pounds exactly - which is the 50th percentile
  • Height: 42 and 1/8 inches - which is the 35th percentile
  • Vision is 20/20 - and slightly stronger with your right eye
  • Developmentally exactly where you should be
  • Need to drink more milk!
So, how did we spend your big day??

Last night, I read to you my list of favorite memories for this past year. When I got to the one about how you worried about how the doctor was going to take the baby out of my belly and how you didn't want me to hurt, you teared up and said, "And, I missed you when you were in the hospital. I wanted you to sing to me." You crawled out of your sheets and climbed into my arms, and you asked me to rock you. I loved how "in the moment" you were with me - just reminiscing with me and loving each other so very much. It was a perfect ending to a great afternoon saying goodbye to four. You kept telling me that I was the BEST and how much you love me. And, I am sure you could feel my love for you.

Then this morning, you woke up first, which is unusual lately (you have been starting to sleep in later, which is AWESOME....except it comes at a time right before starting Kindergarten and will have to get up earlier next year!). But, I know you were excited about your big day! You came into our room, and when I opened my eyes, I smiled and said, "Happy Birthday!" You said, "Thank you!" with a smile and then climbed into bed with me. It already made next year's favorite memories list as you and I cuddled together and then Daddy and I held hands. There we were, just the three of us, and we were embracing you on this big birthday of yours! Soon, Quinn came in with a balloon. He said, "I found a balloon!" You asked, "Is that for me?" Daddy got up and brought back in a bag of balloons, and you and Quinn were thrilled to have fun with this birthday tradition that started on your first birthday. You played for a bit, and then Daddy surprised you with donuts he had snuck out to go buy while you and Quinn kept playing with the balloons.

Later, we went to Grandma & Papa's house, took Levi with us to the splash park where you played with Levi & Luca, Bree & Lexi, and saw some old friends from last year's class, picked up lunch and ate it with Caden & Mara while Aunt Mischelle had a garage sale at Grandma's house, and then it was "Turtle Time." After that, you and Quinn played in the pool for a bit. Then, we got ready to go to Chuck E. Cheese's! After a night of games and pizza and cake, you and Quinn took a very bubbly bath at Grandma's followed by a sleep over there (while our roof is being fixed). After your bath, I read you the "I Believe" I wrote for the year you were 4, and we reminisced some more about this past year.

It was a day filled with all your favorites! Donuts, chicken tenders, pizza, cake, swimming, splash park, Grandma's house, cousins, iPad, family, Chuck E. Cheese, games, and bubble bath! I couldn't have asked for a better day for you, and you kept saying, "This is the best birthday EVER!" I sure hope so, and I sure hope it just keeps getting better and better!

Banner Boone, I often sit and rock Knox while thinking back to when you were his age. That seems like yesterday. While I miss you as a baby and those early years, I am so loving getting to know you as this grown up little boy. You are one awesome kid! You're so cool - and funny, handsome, thoughtful, loving, polite, and so smart. You're creative and inquisitive and curious and silly and cute as can be. You're also strong-willed and frustrating and adventurous to a point I'd rather you not be! But, that's what keeps me on my toes! You test your boundaries daily, and you test my patience at least weekly! But, we "get" each other, and I love you more than you will ever know. You've entered a phase of wanting to please us more, and that REALLY pleases me! :) I'm liking that you're out of the "threenage" year and more and more done with the "fournado" year! But, all of those stages made you who you are and helped you and I navigate each other better. I'm always going to worry about you or feel like I don't know what I'm doing as your mommy, and I've come to learn that over 5 years of motherhood. You teach me DAILY how to be a better parent, and how to be YOUR mom. I think back and look at how far you and I have come... and sometimes how we are still stuck in that hospital bed frustrated at each other that we can't get this nursing thing down. Five years together, and we know each other better than we ever have before - but there is still so much more to come. And, my sweet Angel Baby, there's no one else I'd rather be on this ride with than you!

In May, as I tucked you in one night, you looked into my eyes and said, "Thank you for loving me."
Oh, Banner Boone, thank you for letting me!

Happy 5th Birthday, Banner!
I love you love you LOVE you!
Love,
Mommy


Watching Ella's birthday message to you that Randi sent first thing this morning












Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Favorite Fifth Year Memories

  • Rescue Bot party at Metroplex was SO fun!
  • Watching you in the Bay of Play at Sea World
  • Holding you while we watched Shamu that sticky, hot summer day
  • The night you rubbed my head when I had a headache and you were so proud to be doing a mitzvah; after bath, you came in and said, "Good night, Mommy. I love you. I hope you feel better."
  • Telling you about our baby and you being right that it's a boy baby!
  • How you told me about comforting Quinn on his first day of school and what a mitzvah it was
  • Our "in-law" talk and discussing Bubbie and Zaide at our wedding and how I miss Bubbie and loved her too even though she was Daddy's mommy (August)
  • "Mommy, how do they get the baby out of your tummy?" conversation in October and how worried you were about it hurting Mommy
  • "Mommy, I want to keep sleeping with you. Can we? Just for a little bit?" (October, before I left your bed one night when you were nearly asleep)
  • The night I laid with you and you told me a quick story about the "Mommy who was going to have a baby and her tummy got bigger and bigger and it was almost time for the baby to be born." Then, you fell asleep after we talked about what it would be like when the baby is here: "Do you think he will cry a lot?" I asked. "Yes," you said, and when I asked what we should do if he cried, you gave perfect answers: feed him because maybe he's hungry, maybe he's ready for a nap, maybe he needs his paci or wants to go home or needs his diaper changed. Then, as I left your room and kissed your forehead, you grabbed MY hand and kissed it. (October 12)
  • When I'd pick you up from school this year, and you'd roll down the window before buckling up to wave to everyone as you shouted, "Bye, Friends!!! See you tomorrow! Bye, Friends!" Sometimes you'd call them by name. Sometimes you'd say goodbye to the security guard, "Bye, Charlie!" But, EVERY time, I'd have to demand you sit down and buckle up already!
  • Our day at the fair and how you said, "It looks like Big Tex wants to give someone a hug." (October)
  • Watching you wave to me from the garage, as I left for work, giving me the "I love you" sign
  • Harmonizing Peek-a-Boo at the dinner table - all four of us
  • Watching you sing at the Thanksgiving program
  • Dancing silly and doing our own little dances to the French Can-Can
  • The day at Ms. Patty's when you finally came up for air on your own and took a long time to make eye contact with me from across the pool afterward, but when you did, you lit up and I teared up!
  • Introducing you to Knox
  • "Slipping Through My Fingers" song came on on the way to Grandma's house, I teared up, you were playing a game with me when I'd look in the rearview mirror and you'd hide. I think you knew I teared up, and when we got to Grandma's driveway, you unbuckled and perched yourself between the driver and passenger seats and stared at me. A long stare. I asked what you were thinking. You wouldn't tell me. But, we just looked at each other and I wanted to bottle you up! I took pictures of you in that moment.
  • Watching you act in the Purim play (Uncle Mordecai)
  • Singing "Super Trouper" in the car "shoo bop bop, shoo bop bop"
  • "Are you praying to idols?" you asked me one night while I held your hand and Quinn's hand on the other side and leaned my head on the nightstand between your beds. "No, I'm resting my head," I replied. "Does God know that?" you asked with concern. 
  • Listening to you read Dick and Jane for the first time. 
  • Listening to you read ANYTHING!
  • Your silly dance to Maccabeats "Dyenu" song, especially the part where you put your hand to your mouth to call out a loud yoddle
  • Helping you write a love letter to Addy: "Mommy, how do you write 'I love you so much that I want to marry you?'" 
  • Singing with you in your bed to the many lullabies: "Dream," "I L.O.V.E. Y.O.U," "Wings," "Hushaby Street," and "Appalachian Lullaby" and you always want to sing certain parts by yourself, even without Quinn singing, too, especially the lyrics "I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine, any time - night or day" when we sing "Dream."
  • Reading this list to you tonight, and you teared up and asked if I could rock you. You thanked me for several memories and all the great things I said about you. We gave each other a kiss where we got "stuck" to each other, and you kept telling me "You're the BEST!" I'm pretty sure you meant it this morning and a few days ago when you said, "I'm gonna miss being four." Me too, sweet boy. But I wouldn't have it any other way!

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Goodbye, Preschool!

Dear Banner,
Before last Thursday night, I was thinking the end of your preschool experience would be easy on me. I actually wondered if I was doing okay based on my flippancy over the whole ordeal. I am usually so emotional, and I kept wondering why I wasn't more teary or sentimental over it all. Perhaps I've been so busy with everything else going on (Knox's naming, the end of the school year, planning 2 showers and a birthday party, home repairs, and possibly putting our house up for sale!), that maybe I just didn't have the energy to devote to the thoughts of the big transition about to happen to my firstborn. Or, maybe I wouldn't allow myself. But then, Thursday night came, and as I tucked you in and cuddled in bed with you, it hit me. The following day would be your last Shabbat at school. I felt two big feelings: guilt that I wouldn't be able to be with you and sadness that it all came so quickly. The realization that we'd never sit at YOUR Shabbat together again, the memories of so many Shabbats in the past, the presentations that have gone on the past 3 school years for so many Fridays, those special moments with you in my lap or at my side feeling connected with our Jewish community and the togetherness of friends and family... it was a little overwhelming, and then the tears began.

The strong urge to hold tight to this tender, innocent time in your life is debilitating almost. Knowing that there is literally nothing I can do to stop time or slow it down is heart-wrenching. The image I so-often have is of me trying to gather up sand that keeps slipping away from me no matter how fast I'm clawing for it or how big I scoop it up. Too soon these days of you being my little boy will be gone, and I know it. So, I try with all my might to savor it and memorize it. In fact, just last week, you sat on the playroom floor with me - Quinn on my other side and Knox right in front of me in his NapNanny while I fed him. I said to all of you, "Everyone just look at each other. Remember this moment. Remember Banner sitting here - 4 years old. Remember Quinn - 2 years old, and Knox just a little baby. Look at each other. Remember this." I just wanted to take in the moment and hope that you and Quinn could too. I know I'm being a little ridiculous hoping for that, but it's what I want - the memories, the visions of us, the capturing of your sweet faces and voices and words and soft hands in mine...

So, yes, it's hit me now. I have a feeling that every May will be rough as I realize another school year has passed and my boys are growing up. Each end of a school year represents another lap of childhood complete, and while it's all wonderful stuff, it's just kind of hard to let you keep growing up! But, we've made the most of this school year - probably the easiest of all the years ahead. You and Quinn were in the same school, which won't happen again for a few years. For a little over half the year, it was just you and Quinn before we added a baby brother to the mix. You'll be in fifth grade by the time Knox starts Kindergarten, and knowing how fast YOU got to Kindergarten, I know that will feel like the blink of an eye!

This was a big year for you, and I'm so very proud of how you handled it, Angel Baby. We switched schools, you took care of Quinn, you learned Spanish and Hebrew, you learned how to write better than ever, and you learned how to READ. You gained even more knowledge about the Jewish holidays and traditions, and you made some great friends! You fell in love again (not sure which lovely young lady you love more now - Addy or Julia). Your artwork developed, your ability to sit still in circle time increased, and you gained confidence to believe in your answer (although we are still working on this!). You gave awesome presentations and had your acting debut as Uncle Mordecai in the Purim play. You learned to listen to your teachers better and to not argue with consequences. And throughout the year, you taught US so much!

This afternoon when you got home (Melissa, Bree, and Alexis dropped you off), the little boys were napping, which gave us a great opportunity to have our typical one-on-one time for at least a few minutes. I sat on the little stool in the kitchen, and I held you close. I told you how proud I am of you - and we reflected on your preschool experiences. I shared with you how I was feeling before you started the 2's class with Ms. Betty and Ms. Jennifer. I wondered if you would eat your food, would you play nicely, would everyone be nice to you, would you sit in circle time, would you be okay when I left the classroom each morning? And we reflected on how far you've come. We talked about what wonderful things the teachers say about you and how much you've grown. We talked about all the amazing teachers you've had - naming Ms. Betty, Ms. Jennifer, Ms. Hedy, Ms. Michelle, Ms. Florence, Ms. Rhonda, Ms. Suzanne, Ms. Lisa, Mr. Abo, Ms. Shellee, Ms. Judy, Ms. Rachel, Ms. Sandi, Ms. Yael. I'm glad we had that little chat - to just capture the meaningfulness of these past few years of your life - the foundation of your education and Jewish identity in these early years.

This evening, as I ironed your shirt for your celebration dinner at school, I thought back to how proud I am of Daddy and me for being able to provide these experiences for you. Preschool is no cheap expense... in fact, we've paid a cost that is slightly ridiculous for a little person! But, I'm glad we've made the choices we did, and I'm so happy that you were able to have these amazing times with great friends and teachers. You were cared for so well, you thrived in the schools you've grown to love and consider a home away from home, and you will take the many lessons you learned with you into the big world of Kindergarten and on.

Oh, such bittersweetness, Angel. I'm so grateful that you are healthy and able to go to Kindergarten - that you are learning and growing and developing and aging as you should. But, it's so hard to let you go and grow! As I sat on the couch this rainy afternoon, I fed Knox his bottle while you sat next to us. The irony of him so little next to you so big now... it pulls at my heartstrings. You were this little just yesterday it seems. And now you are my big boy, ready to graduate preschool in the blink of an eye - and I know how fast these years are going.... and it's only going to go faster! But, I'm one lucky mama to be along for the ride with you!

Your graduating ("celebration") class sang a song tonight where the line "Do I make you proud?" kept repeating. The answer, sweet boy, is always! I love you more than you could ever know, and I will always be your biggest fan no matter what.

Here's to a great last day of preschool tomorrow! Savor it. I know I will!
Love,
Mommy

Eating at the head table
With Ms. Sandi
With Ms. Yael
Addy & You
Bree & You
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